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Gordon moved in and I soon realized that the small things bothered me more than I thought. Like, he wasn’t the smartest tool in the shed. He’d complain about being tired yet he’d be standing right next to the bed and wouldn’t climb in. I’d try to politely point that out but he’d only wave his hands in the air(like he just didn’t care), and yell that he was tired. I’d have to retreat to the bathroom in order to get some peace.

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Sometimes I would forget that the photographer was there until she caught me doing stupid stuff. Like, for instance the time she caught me looking at the snow.

“What am I doing? Looking out the window at the snow? Oh, yes…I know there’s no window in the bathroom but if there was this is how I would be looking at the snow. What are you laughing at?”

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I walked out of the bathroom to find Gordon lying on the floor right next to the freaking bed. I had the insane urge to kick him but instead I shook him awake and guided him into the bed.  I understood that he was working hard to provide for our future but I think being an Executive that you’d have some kind of common sense. Not to mention be able to set a few of your own hours.  But it wasn’t all bad.

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Gordon liked to clean as much as I did. Some days he would come home and seeing a spot in the shower he’d step right in, with his suit and wing tipped shoes still on, and get to work scrubbing. He was a fanatic about cleaning. The photographer, who refused to tell me her name, would just shake her head and mumble something about freaks before she’s snap a shot off. Personally I thought she was the freak since she was the one following us around. I mean seriously, didn’t she have her own life?

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I liked to think that I was growing to love Gordon. He made me laugh. No matter how little money we had he always made me feel as if I was the only one for him. He would shower me with affection no matter the time of day and I felt like a real witch for doubting my feelings toward him but I just couldn’t make myself say those three little words.

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Three little words that meant the world to Gordon but he never, ever asked me straight out if I loved him. Sometimes I think that he knew I didn’t but he thought if he gave me time I would.  And maybe that’s true.